Like a heart attack

They say you can never really tell when you will have a heart attack. Sometimes the symptoms build up in your body over either minutes, hours, days or even weeks. So you never really know the exact moment when its about to happen until one day, you get a little too stressed and you feel your chest begin to ache while you're driving down the highway. This has happened to you before and you know its just an early stage that usually never progresses farther so you ignore it and think it'll go away but then the pain escalates down to your shoulders making you realize that maybe, just maybe this is worse than all the scares before. So you contemplate whether you should go to the hospital as your heart races and your breath becomes restrained. You finally decide to give the indicator, turn the steering wheel and find the nearest hospital.

By the time you make it to the emergency room a fear has swept over you and you find it difficult to even stand and tell the nearest attendant that you think you're having a heart attack. As absent minded as you may have been, you do tell the nearest person and they do scramble around to put you on stretcher just moments after you collapse right there and then.

After what seems like hours later, you awake to find a doctor standing over you telling you how lucky you have been, how you could've died, how had you been even a little late, your family would have been mourning your loss right now.

At first you listen to the doctor telling you all the details but soon your mind seems to wander towards how you could have been late.

You think back to how only this morning you had regretted staying up all night but how, maybe if you hadn't you wouldn't have left the house in a rush.

You think back to how you regretted skipping breakfast but that delay could have cost you your life.

You constantly and aimlessly find yourself thinking over all those tiny little mistakes that you regretted but the ones which ultimately may have saved your life. You soon realize, even the most minuscule of things may have played a great role in you lying awake in that moment.

When I was younger, I used to think the silliest new years resolution I ever made was to not do anything I'd regret because it always seemed like I was always going to mess up. Now as I think back to all those mistakes, I realize the reason my life is good right now is because every little thing contributed to it. I guess I realized it isn't about not doing things you will regret but learning that there is no point in regretting what happened. There is no good in thinking over how this one thing is affecting you because in the long run, that one bad thing might give you a thousand good things.

Life has a way of hitting us like a heart attack and we may soon realize that it may just be our flaws and our mistakes that save us.