If I were to love..

Can you imagine a cold winter night where you are sitting by the fireplace in the arms of the love of your life with a cup of coffee in hand and your beautiful children smiling before you as you tell them your love story?
I can. I can imagine ever laugh, every giggle and especially the sparkle in my eyes that night is going to bring. I can imagine sitting there in that perfect moment, looking up at the man who belongs with me. I don't care how he looks or talks, I just want to spend my life with the man who will love me and never let go.
If I were to fall in love, it would be with the guy who would take care me because he knows I've never been cared for. He would chase after me singing songs filled with memories whenever I refused to take my medicines. He would remind me to eat because I always forget. He would force me to wear warm clothes in the winter and sunscreen in the summer. If I were to fall in love, it would be with the man who never gave up on me despite all my stubbornness.
If I were to fall in love, I would drive that poor man insane but I'd make sure every day was adventure. There would be nights when he'd have had a rough day at work but I'd fix him and bring his beautiful smile back. I would never let a tear fall from his eyes and if it ever did, I would hold him for as long as he needed and even longer. I'd make him come with me to malls and we could run around like five year old kids then stroll through a garden like teenagers in love. I would take him to places he'd never even dreamed of. I'd love that poor man with all my heart.
If I were to fall in love again, it would just be once more and it would be the last. I don't want flings or short lived romances, I don't want to give bits and pieces of myself away. I don't want to share these emotions of love with anyone except the man I am going to marry and love for eternity.
If I were to fall in love, I'd want it to be with the man who did little things to make me smile. I don't want expensive gifts but just a man who would wear a ring on his finger for me. I want to love a man who would surprise me with a single red flower or spoil me with chocolates. I want to love the man who is the definition of romance and he would get the same romance in return. If I were to love, I'd love the man who never let the flame of our love die.
I have secrets I hide from the world but I would give them all away to him. I would tell about all my regrets and mistakes. I would tell him about all the ugliness that turned my heart black once upon a time. I would understand if he fell silent after hearing my stories but I'd know he would never leave. I know he would stay no matter what he heard because if I were to love, I'd love the man who loves me.
If I were to love..